I was readmitted to the Dixie regional hospital Saturday night after a phone call to my mom and she urged me to go. This time I went to the access center in St. George to avoid the ambulance ride (my dear friend Ruthie took me at 11pm, which was so kind of her. I think I freaked out my roommates though). Anyways, then I arranged to be transferred to Uni at the University of Utah and my dad came down to St. George and brought me there. I'm so glad it worked out- Uni is about 10 times better than Dixie. They took me off of Lithium and were curious to know why the psychiatrist at Dixie put me on it (for the suicidal thoughts), it must've helped for a little bit or maybe just being in a stress-free environment at Dixie helped ease the thoughts, but as soon as I started thinking about having to go back to class and track the thoughts came right back. So now I'm here, in Salt Lake at Uni. Not sure how long I'll be here, but at least a week. Treatment plan is to stay on Prozac and do ECT (electroconvulsive therapy). There are some potential side effects like headaches, memory loss, and fatigue and on rare occasions unintended siezures so I'm a bit nervous but it'll be alright. The thought of inducing a seizure seems a bit scary but somehow it helps with depression. At this point when I've tried several medications over a couple years and none of them have worked, ECT is looking like a good option.
I had an EKG done tonight and I have bradycardia (expected since I'm a runner) and a T wave abnormality, the doctor will assess it and see if I'm still okay to do ECT. The technician said it could be nothing, but we'll see