I’m going to start getting to bed earlier, I was so tired today. Sometimes I forget that I need sleep. Also, legs were heavy.
Mile warmup, strides then started. Workout was 4x1000s on the grass with 3 min recovery. We were all hoping for it to be on the track. I need to learn to love the grass because it’s just always going to be where we do workouts until track season. It’s good because it’s cross so we don’t need the fast speed and can learn to run off effort. And it’s also nice to throw pace out the window and just focus on being consistent, and it’ll toughen us up. I would rather run fast paces and build confidence on the track, but there’s time for that later.
First three were nice and consistent. Last one Bino and Danielle picked it up and ran with me, I dropped back after a bit because I started worrying about it too much and gave up. I need to stop doing that. I’m frustrated because it was the last one, I was on pace with 400 left. I was cranky, tired and frustrated, not my day? I need to learn how to relax, let negative thoughts and feelings go and replace them with positive ones. I’m good at positive self-talk and managed to thrust all the negative down for the first three but it’s like as soon as something changes I can’t keep it down anymore and start to die. Paul gave me another pep talk before the last and that helped me in the first half, I was starting to struggle mentally but held on a little longer, then negative won out. Running is such a mental game.
Times went 4:05, 4:03, 4:05, 4:17.
Positives are that I was more consistent than past workouts. It was just the last one. I’m heading in the right direction, just need to toughen up mentally and continue to work hard.
Cooled down to 6.
Asked Coach after how fast he wants me to increase my miles, he said he doesn’t. He wants me to stay at 8 for a while, because it seems like anytime I get up to 10 I get injured. I can’t deny that, so 8 it is. I’m a little sad because I do feel more confident with higher miles, but maybe if I do 6 on faster workout days and 10 easy on recovery days that’d be alright. Then I’m still running long sometimes and getting that benefit, and on faster days I can hit the paces without worrying about distance.