Today was the second day of camp, we are at 10,000 ft elevation so its harder to run/breathe. In the morning I felt alright, it was really cold out but it felt good. Coach wanted everyone to go at least a mile after the warmups, I went 3 with Ashley even though everyone else turned at the half mile. Ashley added after to 6 cause she's amazing and does 16 miles a day. Later we went to Navajo lake and did a loop that started on the dirt road then turned into trail after the first 4.5 miles. It's beautiful up here! So the first 3 miles were 7:20 average with some rolly hills (though not nearly as steep as Jeremy ranch, just longer) and I was dying. I fell off at about 4 miles, stopped for a sec because I was breathing heavily and I was discouraged that I couldn't keep up. I think I was mostly bugged because a girl I was much faster than in track was still with the group. I had to remind myself that this wasn't a race just a run and that these are my teammates, I guess I'm just not used to running with only girls. I gotta stop being so competitive. Coach was waiting at the trailhead so I felt like an idiot bringing up the rear of the pack (I had chosen to run with the longer distance group). The girls had all waited for me, so that was nice. On the trail as we kept going I felt more and more fatigued, and it was hot. At one point I felt really light headed and out of it, was exhausted and embarrassed that I was the weakling of the group. I soon fell off and completed the last mile and a half on my own at an awfully slow pace, just trying to finish. Ahhh I want to make the travelling team so bad, but if I feel like this for much longer I don't see how I can. I tried so hard to keep up today to show coach that I work hard, but all he must've seen was me tailing behind everyone else. Coach has had some really motivating speeches, and I'm holding fast to some of the things he's said. On a more positive note it's so much fun up here, I love the team and have had a blast. | 