Didn’t run yesterday because I was working all day, 8am-11pm. I was so tired when I got home. No running today either because I worked for a long time today as well and I don’t really feel comfortable running in this part of Salt Lake at night. My parents neighborhood is a lot more familiar to me and more well lit. Theirs is also a larger neighborhood and not so close to Sugarhouse park or other sketchy areas at night.
It’s been 3.5 months since my last ECT treatment, 5.5 since my first hospitalization. Things still feel so much lighter and easier than they did before. I have yet to feel completely content and lose the anxiety, but I haven't had any suicidal ideation whatsoever in 3 months. Which I’d say is pretty amazing considering how things used to be.