SUU Cross Country/Track Running Blog at FastRunningBlog.Com Tue, 21 Aug 2018 13:25:23 FeedCreator 1.7.2 Tue, Aug 21, 2018 <p>80% and whistle hills today. We did it on the track. Since I&rsquo;m just getting back into faster paces I&rsquo;m going to start small and work up. Just so I don&rsquo;t reinjure myself. So I only did 2 of the 3 miles. First mile was 6:00, second (block lap + a little on track)&nbsp;was 6:30. Then whistle hills, worked hard. Felt surprisingly good, felt like I could have easily finished the 3 miles but I think I should take it slow coming back just to be safe. Cooled down to 6.5</p> Tue, 21 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Mon, Aug 20, 2018 <p>First official practice! It was a 50% on farm run. I went out 2 with the group and came back 2 with Danielle. 7:37 average</p> <p>Weights later, it&rsquo;s been a while. My body felt it. Did 30 extra burpees and like 20 extra lunges and&nbsp;dead bugs because either someone on the team yawned or was using the wrong leg or didn&rsquo;t count out loud with everyone at the end of each rep. We&rsquo;re stepping it up a notch this year lol. It&rsquo;s crazy the difference now from what it was my freshman year (everything was so relaxed back then), now things are so much more structured, expectations are higher, but it&rsquo;s so great because our team atmosphere is so much better now. And our resources are growing. We have amazing coaches, a nutritionist, weights coaches, athletic trainers, a sports psychologist, an academic coach, an athletic lab, athletic training room, brand new weight room, even a doctor at the hospital that works specifically with SUU athletes. And everyone previously mentioned is actually taking things more seriously, there&rsquo;s more respect all around. Everything and everyone is stepping up their game. It was kind of a joke my freshman year, at least compared to how things are run now.&nbsp;And it&rsquo;s also the best team we&rsquo;ve ever had according to Coach, including the 2012 team Coach has been talking about and using as an example since before my freshman year. Kind of crazy how much can change in 3 years.&nbsp;</p> <p>Stretched, rolled out, and Drew elbowed my piriformis and dug into my illiopsoas, hurt like heck. Didn&rsquo;t realize I was so tight. Now my hips are sore</p> <p>Came home from work and was itching to run again. It&rsquo;s been a while since that has happened, I think I&rsquo;ve finally 100% pulled out of depression. Also, I lost weight this summer without meaning to. Just a couple pounds, but still. I think it was my lack of an appetite. Or loss of muscle mass. Or both.</p> <p>Ended up biking 8.6 miles, 42 minutes.</p> <p>Sat down with Coach last week and made a plan&nbsp;for building up mileage until I&rsquo;m back to 10 a day. I&rsquo;m starting that up this week, and I&rsquo;m going to actually stick to the rhythms this time.&nbsp;</p> Mon, 20 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Sat, Aug 18, 2018 <p>Extended VA loop, 7:45 average</p> Sat, 18 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Fri, Aug 17, 2018 <p>Ran along Foothill, 7:24 average.</p> <p>I&rsquo;ve realized I hold myself to really high standards.&nbsp;I think part of me expects everyone else to hold me to that as well, so when I don&rsquo;t meet them I set myself up for discouragement and feeling&nbsp;like a failure.</p> <p>I think I need to tone that down a little and cut myself some slack. I need to remind myself that I can&rsquo;t be perfect in everything. That yes, my standards and expectations for myself are high for a reason but if I fall short of them it&rsquo;s not the end of the world.</p> <p>For example, with the progression run I&rsquo;d held myself to the standard that I had to finish it. Sure, Coach told me that was his standard, but I took it to heart&nbsp;and when I realized I couldn&rsquo;t reach that goal I faltered.&nbsp;I didn&rsquo;t think he&rsquo;d give me any leeway because I wasn&rsquo;t giving myself that&nbsp;leeway. So even when he said he&rsquo;d still let me on the team&nbsp;if I didn&rsquo;t finish it, part of me felt like I didn&rsquo;t deserve it. I was still holding myself to high expectations.&nbsp;</p> <p>KNow I think that&rsquo;s great, if you don&rsquo;t have high expectations you&rsquo;ll never achieve anything. But I think I need to learn how to lower them when they&rsquo;re unrealistic. To cut myself some slack, to know that it&rsquo;s the drive and motivations inside that count. Not always the physical proof of what I have or haven&rsquo;t done. It&rsquo;s not always so black and white.&nbsp;</p> <p>I went back and watched the progression run (it was videoed and posted on Facebook). It was kind of eye opening. I realized there were girls that fell off before I did, and while I knew that I kind of shrugged it off at the time because I still expected more of myself. Paul&rsquo;s encouragement&nbsp;sort of registered while I was running it and I used it to try to stay positive, but it didn&rsquo;t really set in until I watched the video.&nbsp;I guess I never really considered that Paul might be able to see my efforts, too. I was really only concerned about Coach. But Paul has always had my back and even if Coach doesn&rsquo;t believe in me, Paul does. I always feel like I have to prove myself to coach because he&rsquo;s the one I report to,&nbsp;the one that decides the logistics of the team. And while he&rsquo;s patient and motivating and lenient with me, he has a team to run and has to worry about the bigger picture. Also, the last two times I&rsquo;ve talked with him he&rsquo;s been surprised to be reminded I still have 3 years left of eligibility. And then&nbsp;he&rsquo;s a lot more open to believing I still have potential.</p> <p>With Paul, I&rsquo;ve never had&nbsp;to convince him of anything.&nbsp;I could tell in the video&nbsp;that he&nbsp;saw I was still fighting even when I hit the wall,&nbsp;he believed in me and can maybe see the potential I do have.&nbsp;And then when I did fall off pace, man it gets me every time. Paul was trying to get me to stay on pace and I let him down.&nbsp;I wish I had worked harder because I did give up after I&rsquo;d fallen so far back from the pack. I could&rsquo;ve gritted our another lap or two if I was more focused. But I think this was good, it&rsquo;s something to learn from and got me back into the more competitive mindset, I&rsquo;m ready to buckle down and work hard.</p> Fri, 17 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Thu, Aug 16, 2018 <p>Well, glad that&rsquo;s over with! And I feel pretty good about it actually. I mean I sucked wind but I&nbsp;showed up and did what I could, and now I&rsquo;m actually really pumped because Coach stuck with what he said, I&rsquo;m still good to come to practice on Monday. And I&rsquo;m pumped to be with the team again, I&rsquo;ve missed everyone. I love it here so much.&nbsp;Coach said that this is the best team we&rsquo;ve ever had, including the 2012 team. Our top 6 girls all secured top 7 on the all-time list, Angie set a new record with a 5:15 last mile. I frickin love my team.&nbsp;</p> <p>Coach decided to only take 12 girls to camp this year, I was 12th but he&rsquo;s taking a freshman instead of me. Which is cool, she deserves to go. And it means I can go to Salt Lake for family pictures so my grandma will be happy.&nbsp;</p> <p>I ran a consistent performance, exactly the same as last year. Ha, both years I&rsquo;ve been out of shape. But it&rsquo;s still better than my freshman year. Made it 4 laps of the second progression, so basically 2 progressions. Started with 9:00 mile, 8:00 mile, 7:00 mile, then the progressions start. First progression is a 6:30 mile, second&nbsp;6:20, third&nbsp;6:10, then 3 laps idk what pace, and one mile all out. So I made it the 6:30 and 6:20 then got pulled.&nbsp;</p> <p>I just stuck on the pack for as long as I could and that was that. Also, my shoe became untied before the first progression so that was slightly annoying, and almost fell because someone behind me stepped on the shoelace but I didn&rsquo;t so it&rsquo;s all good! The whole pack was fast. I ran one lap by myself because I was technically still on pace, but after that I was done.&nbsp;</p> <p>I could&rsquo;ve made it one more lap at least, but for what shape I&rsquo;m in I&rsquo;m happy with it. It wasn&rsquo;t half as bad as I was expecting.&nbsp;</p> <p>Got our new gear, it&rsquo;s like Christmas in the summertime! Mile cool down.&nbsp;</p> Thu, 16 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Wed, Aug 15, 2018 <p>Today was full of meetings for the new season to start and form training and such. It actually got me kind of pumped. I&rsquo;d forgotten how much fun it is to be with the team&nbsp;and to have practice. The last time I did warmups/drills was back in April and today yet again I found myself almost babying my femur, expecting it to hurt as I did drills&nbsp;but no pain of course. That actually got me really pumped because it felt so great to be back and able to do everything with no pain. Kind of surprised me too because I realized how negative my attitude has&nbsp;been coming into this season, I&rsquo;d basically given up all hope of ever being able to run fast again.</p> <p>At the meetings we were introduced to the sports psychologist (I didn&rsquo;t even know we had one to be honest) and I ended up meeting with him before the form training,&nbsp;it actually really helped. I realized that while, yes, I might not be at my best physically at this moment, I still have this whole year to work hard and improve. I&rsquo;d had kind of the mindset&nbsp;that my hard work went unnoticed, that it&rsquo;s been&nbsp;all for nothing, but that&rsquo;s not true. There&rsquo;s a reason I&rsquo;m still on the team. There&rsquo;s a reason Coach is giving me leeway. There&rsquo;s a reason I got a scholarship in the first place. And that&rsquo;s because of my hard work, and Coach can see that. That&rsquo;s why he let me keep my scholarship for another year. That&rsquo;s why he&rsquo;s letting me stay with&nbsp;the team. Because he knows my heart is in it and he knows I&rsquo;ve been putting in the work.</p> <p>I realized I&rsquo;ve been stressing that Coach will go back on his decision. That if I do terribly on the progression run he&rsquo;s going to shake his head and wonder why he&rsquo;s cutting me some slack. But&nbsp;that&rsquo;s out of my control and worrying about it will do nothing but limit me. So, instead, I should focus on what I can control. I can work hard. Even if the worst happens and coach goes back on his decision, which I don&rsquo;t think he will, I still have until December to get into the shape I need to be in for track season. I can perform well in track and secure my scholarship for another year. I can still improve, I can still be fast. It wouldn&rsquo;t be the end of the world.&nbsp;</p> <div> <p>So finally, I can go into the progression run knowing it&rsquo;s just to see where I&rsquo;m at. It&rsquo;s not the end. Whatever happens happens, and either way I&rsquo;m still going to be working hard to improve. Realistically Cross season won&rsquo;t be all that great for me anyway, I will be getting into shape and ready to compete for track. Being with the team would be great because I&rsquo;d have set workouts, and coaches to push me, but not being with the team would be great too because I&rsquo;d be able to set my own workouts, go my own paces and just focus on bettering myself, improving, and not the stress of competing. So either way, I will be fine. I&rsquo;d rather be with the team and would be so grateful if Coach stuck with what he said, but honestly, I&rsquo;ll be alright with anything. We&rsquo;ll just see what happens.&nbsp;</p> <p>I&rsquo;m probably going to continue to meet with the sports psychologist for a while. I think it&rsquo;ll help. And I might try taking antidepressants again but we&rsquo;ll see how I feel. My only hesitation is the side effects and having another allergic reaction.</p> <p>Ran with Danielle after the form training, 4 miles at 7:53 average.</p> </div> Wed, 15 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Tue, Aug 14, 2018 <p>7:34 average. I&#39;m really nervous about the progression run...I just ran the same distance today and it&#39;s fine when I go slow but I&#39;m not sure that I can hold a fast pace for that long. I might try to talk to Coach tomorrow after all the team meetings, he&#39;ll know what to say to help me relax. I just hate feeling like a disappointment is all.</p> Tue, 14 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Mon, Aug 13, 2018 <p>Back in Cedar, felt surprisingly good. 7:23 average. Still feel out of shape&nbsp;though and I&rsquo;m nervous for the progression run on Thursday. Thinking about trying to hold 4 miles of 6:15 average (6:30 down to 6:00)&nbsp;is a bit terrifying.&nbsp;I haven&rsquo;t done any speed or tempo in 4&nbsp;months... that&rsquo;s really scary to think about. Except the 2 miles of 80% I tried right before my femur started hurting for the second time. I haven&rsquo;t&nbsp;wanted&nbsp;to risk it again but now I&rsquo;m wondering if I should have? Ahhh. I&rsquo;m just really nervous. I realized today I&rsquo;ve been half expecting my femur&nbsp;to hurt again, I guess I&rsquo;m still just scared to reinjure myself.&nbsp;I started feeling some pain in the same thigh&nbsp;today but I think it&rsquo;s a tight muscle. That&rsquo;s what it feels like. Went to my foam roller to try the fulcrum test and found myself tensing&nbsp;up because I was expecting pain haha but of course it&rsquo;s fine, it&rsquo;s almost been 4.5&nbsp;months so yeah it should be completely healed by now. I&rsquo;ve been kind of babying it, sometimes I&rsquo;ll step or&nbsp;jump up onto a high ledge at work&nbsp;and I surprise myself with the ease at which I can do it. Then I remind myself I used to jump hurdles and I&rsquo;m tall so of course I still can haha.&nbsp;My range of motion is still great and I kind of surprise myself with how much more energy and ability to focus I have now that I&rsquo;ve pulled out of depression. Also, my appetite is coming back so that&rsquo;s a great sign.&nbsp;</p> Mon, 13 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Sat, Aug 11, 2018 <p>7:45 average. These past couple runs have been in the middle of the day and it&rsquo;s been so hot</p> Sat, 11 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Fri, Aug 10, 2018 <p>7:34&nbsp;average</p> Fri, 10 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Thu, Aug 09, 2018 <p>Up to the zoo trail and took it over to red butte then adventure run back home. Forgot how hilly it was but the view of the valley is so beautiful&nbsp;so it&rsquo;s always worth it</p> Thu, 09 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Wed, Aug 08, 2018 <p>Wasatch loop again, I love it so much haha</p> Wed, 08 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Tue, Aug 07, 2018 <p>VA loop before helping with my friend&rsquo;s wedding. It was a beautiful venue, the sealing was so special and they both were so happy.&nbsp;</p> Tue, 07 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Mon, Aug 06, 2018 <p>Wasatch loop.&nbsp;</p> <p>I&rsquo;m always reminded of how different Salt Lake and Cedar are, and yet I love them both so much. Cedar&rsquo;s small and more easy going, laid back and relaxed. Salt lake is big and has more to do, is faster paced and busier.&nbsp;Up until now it was like they were two different parts of my life, I had a lot of&nbsp;friends in Cedar and only a few in Salt Lake but had my family, and&nbsp;now&nbsp;they&rsquo;re starting to mix together since a couple&nbsp;Cedar friends moved up north, and I&rsquo;ve met more people through them.</p> <p>I wasn&rsquo;t very social in high school. I used to only care about running and looking back that was kind of a sad existence.</p> <p>Now, it&rsquo;s different. I find meaning in so many other things such as family,&nbsp;religion and the relationships with those around me.&nbsp;</p> <p>I&rsquo;m still extremely passionate about running, but it&rsquo;s not my whole world anymore.&nbsp;&nbsp;</p> <p>I&rsquo;ve kind of turned into a social butterfly.&nbsp;I&rsquo;m more relaxed and comfortable meeting new people. I&rsquo;m more down to have fun because I&rsquo;m not as worried about it, or I&rsquo;ve realized that it doesn&rsquo;t matter what people think. I&rsquo;ve been lucky enough to have carefree friends who tell me not to worry when they sense I am.&nbsp;</p> <p>I realized this weekend that I have anxiety on top of my depression. That&rsquo;s what kept me to myself in high school and still limits me in other things. I worry too&nbsp;much, about what&rsquo;s going to happen, about offending or upsetting people, about literally everything. And I think stress heightens them&nbsp;both.</p> <p>I think that&rsquo;s why I choked so bad when Coach told me he wouldn&rsquo;t let me on the team if I didn&rsquo;t finish the progression run. Because I didn&rsquo;t believe I could do it with my femur hurting again&nbsp;and worried&nbsp;about the worst possible outcome.</p> <p>I think it&rsquo;s good to challenge yourself and face your worries and fears. I&rsquo;ve never regretted it. Every time I&rsquo;ve taken a risk, did something despite my fears,&nbsp;I&rsquo;ve gotten something out of it.&nbsp;I think pushing yourself beyond what&rsquo;s comfortable helps you to grow and improve, not just in running but in all areas of life. Never giving up even when it seems&nbsp;too hard, but also learning to let go of&nbsp;the hopes and dreams that are&nbsp;unrealistic and only make you depressed. Finding where your efforts should be placed, what is going to help you the most.&nbsp;I love the lessons that both life and&nbsp;running have&nbsp;taught me.&nbsp;</p> Mon, 06 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Sat, Aug 04, 2018 <p>Wasatch loop</p> Sat, 04 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Fri, Aug 03, 2018 <p>6 in Cedar before heading to Salt Lake. My car is fixed and got a different dress so it all worked out!</p> Fri, 03 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Thu, Aug 02, 2018 <p>Extremely stressful day. Car wouldn&rsquo;t start, was late to work, borrowed Maddy&rsquo;s car after work to get a part for my car, she&rsquo;s seriously so kind.&nbsp;Maddy&rsquo;s car then wouldn&rsquo;t start and&nbsp;I felt so so bad cause I was like this isn&rsquo;t even my car! Spent 20 minutes trying to get it to start to no avail. Eventually walked home and James came back with me to try to help me out, what a guy. He was super stressed out too because of school so that was very kind of him. He couldn&rsquo;t get the key to turn either and neither could an auto guy.&nbsp;I fumbled with it for 5 more minutes then one lucky time got the key to turn! Blessed. Then went to the post office downtown to track down a package, I ordered a dress a month ago for my best friends wedding, which I&rsquo;d planned to go&nbsp;back up to Salt Lake for tomorrow. It was supposed to be here last week. I&rsquo;m one of her bridesmaids so I kind of need that dress. Then got told it was sent back to China a couple days ago due to me moving houses a couple weeks ago, I guess I hadn&#39;t filled out the forwarding slip correctly. Also super stressed because money&rsquo;s tight for the rest of the summer until my scholarships kick in, and I had a falling out with the guy I dated last semester this past weekend sooo yep life is life.&nbsp;Anyways then tried tracking down jumper cables to jump my car cause the battery was dead, finally found some and got my car to start. Went for a run afterwards&nbsp;because I knew I needed a breather.</p> <p>Yeah so the run was great! Good to let off some steam. It&rsquo;s a bit strange how putting yourself through some physical pain helps relieve the internal stresses and pains ever so slightly. But I&rsquo;ll take it.&nbsp;7:29 average.&nbsp;</p> Thu, 02 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Wed, Aug 01, 2018 <p>Wow today felt AMAZING compared to the last week or so. Breathing was good, everything felt great, nice and relaxed.&nbsp;7:52 average.&nbsp;</p> Wed, 01 Aug 2018 06:00:00 Tue, Jul 31, 2018 <p>Got the most painful cramp or side ache or something of my life&nbsp;1.5 miles in and couldn&rsquo;t breathe it hurt so bad. So I hobbled home and called it. Felt like I&rsquo;d been stabbed. Still managed to average 8:00 so that&rsquo;s surprising.&nbsp;</p> Tue, 31 Jul 2018 06:00:00 Mon, Jul 30, 2018 <p>Okay I don&rsquo;t know what&rsquo;s up. Breathing&nbsp;hurts&nbsp;and my chest feels tight while running. Could be exercise induced asthma. Or I could just be out of shape. Or both. But hopefully I get over it soon.&nbsp;</p> Mon, 30 Jul 2018 06:00:00 Sat, Jul 28, 2018 <p>Wasatch loop,&nbsp;7:20 average.&nbsp;</p> Sat, 28 Jul 2018 06:00:00 Fri, Jul 27, 2018 <p>Shriner&rsquo;s run. Felt pretty good, feel slightly out of shape still. I know I&rsquo;m not it&rsquo;s just me trying to get back into things.</p> Fri, 27 Jul 2018 06:00:00 Thu, Jul 26, 2018 <p>VA loop. Up in Salt Lake this weekend, finally felt good. 7:31 average.&nbsp;</p> Thu, 26 Jul 2018 06:00:00 Wed, Jul 25, 2018 <p>7:26 average. Felt a little better, but still not great. Probably just feeling the time off.</p> Wed, 25 Jul 2018 06:00:00 Tue, Jul 24, 2018 <p>7:55 average. Felt out of shape</p> Tue, 24 Jul 2018 06:00:00 Mon, Jul 23, 2018 <p>7:42 average</p> Mon, 23 Jul 2018 06:00:00 Sat, Jul 21, 2018 <p>7:43 average</p> Sat, 21 Jul 2018 06:00:00