Sock tans Running Blog at FastRunningBlog.Com Mon, 16 Sep 2019 03:06:42 FeedCreator 1.7.2 Fri, Sep 13, 2019 <p>Moving day, no running. Didn&rsquo;t have time! Also I went to &ldquo;Get Connected,&rdquo; basically BYU-Idaho&rsquo;s orientation, and I walked all over campus trying to memorize it. By the end of the day I knew my way home from the Hart building without looking at a map&nbsp;#progress</p> <p>Also, I&rsquo;m so happy I came to BYU-I. It&rsquo;s amazing. I know classes haven&rsquo;t even started yet, but I love everything about it. SUU was fun, but it really doesn&rsquo;t compare. There&rsquo;s just something different about BYU-I. Maybe it&rsquo;s that I&rsquo;m now in a culture where we all share the same values and are centered on the gospel. Maybe it&rsquo;s that BYU-I is bigger than SUU. Maybe it&rsquo;s that I finally feel at home at a college. I love the atmosphere, it feels like I&rsquo;m back on my mission almost. Everyone&rsquo;s got your back, we uphold the honor code voluntarily, we all chose to be here, and quite honestly it&rsquo;s amazing to be at a church school. President Nelson posted on social media that he&rsquo;ll be at BYU Provo and will talk directly to the youth on Tuesday, that he felt prompted to. I saw that and I was a bit bummed because I have a class during that time, but I thought I&rsquo;d just watch it later on Then president Eyring (Henry J Eyring, president of BYUI&nbsp;not Henry B Eyring&nbsp;lol) announced to the faculty and all the new students at Get Connected that an email would be sent out later that instead of the regularly scheduled Tuesday&nbsp;devotional (happens weekly) we&rsquo;d start earlier and tune in to President Nelson&rsquo;s message&nbsp;at 11:05. Any&nbsp;10:30 classes will&nbsp;be held before then. It was a huge surprise to me, that never would&rsquo;ve happened anywhere else, definitely not at SUU. It&rsquo;s like everything I&rsquo;ve wanted, I&nbsp;already love it here :)</p> Fri, 13 Sep 2019 06:00:00 Thu, Sep 12, 2019 <p>When I first started I was like uhhhh my legs. They were pretty heavy today. Most definitely from yesterday&rsquo;s long run. But to be honest&nbsp;it&rsquo;s kind of satisfying. They&nbsp;haven&rsquo;t been heavy or sore in a while, it makes me kind of want to work harder and run farther</p> <p>Anyways, I went slow today because I don&rsquo;t want to overdo anything. I&rsquo;ve gotta give my legs time to recover. Thought about going longer too&nbsp;but decided against it for the same reason. Although yesterday&rsquo;s run&nbsp;was just over 10 miles and I used to do that every week (or back in high school every day), I need to build up more strength before it can become a regular thing.</p> Thu, 12 Sep 2019 06:00:00 Wed, Sep 11, 2019 <p>Today it was 55&nbsp;and rainy, it felt sooo nice compared to the 90+ degree heat.&nbsp;I decided I&rsquo;d go for a longer run today, didn&rsquo;t exactly plan on 10.5 miles but that&rsquo;s what it turned into haha. I took Imperial to 3300 S then up to Wasatch and along there for&nbsp;a little over a mile. Then turned and went back the same way. I turned because of a rather large lightning strike, that&rsquo;s when I was like ooookay maybe I should head back now so I don&rsquo;t get struck by lightning. Good news- I didn&rsquo;t :)</p> Wed, 11 Sep 2019 06:00:00 Tue, Sep 10, 2019 <p>Cemetery run, 7:39 average. It was quite windy. It felt harder than I thought it would, I pushed it a bit.&nbsp;8:00 pace feels much better lol</p> Tue, 10 Sep 2019 06:00:00 Sat, Sep 07, 2019 <p>Cemetery</p> Sat, 07 Sep 2019 06:00:00 Fri, Sep 06, 2019 <p>I went over to my parents house this morning after my job to mow the lawn and start going through my stuff to see what I should get rid of, what I should leave at my parents house and what I should take to Rexburg. While I was there Millie came up to me and asked all excitedly if I could take her and Tessa running. It was cute,&nbsp;I&rsquo;m surprised haha. I expected them both to not like it because that&rsquo;s how most people are about running. Haha, anyways turns out Tessa didn&rsquo;t want to go but Millie was really excited. She wanted to go farther than last time so we ran to Bonneville Elementary and back. She wanted to play on the playground for a minute once we got there so I let her. Haha, the first thing she said&nbsp;as we started running again is &ldquo;don&rsquo;t tell Tessa we went to Bonneville. Then she&rsquo;ll get upset and want to go.&rdquo;</p> <p>Just as we were getting close to home Millie asked me when I first started running. I told her I started&nbsp;when I was 14, so two years older than Hattie is right now. Then she told&nbsp;me Tessa was going to do a running competition. Not going to lie, I was surprised. I got excited because I&rsquo;ve always sort of expected all of my sisters to stick with soccer. Tessa is very athletic too. Like she&rsquo;s crazy good at a lot of things- dance, soccer, gymnastics and more. Anyways,&nbsp;I was like whoa that&rsquo;s awesome! It made me really happy to think that she might choose to run.&nbsp;I asked my Dad about it later and he said it was just the school fun run, they can walk if they want. I was a bit disappointed it wasnt something else, but they&rsquo;re both 7. They have a lot of time to figure&nbsp;what they&rsquo;re most interested in and I want them to do what they want to. But it&rsquo;d be really cool if one of them chose to run.&nbsp;Anyways,&nbsp;Millie proceeded to tell me she wouldn&rsquo;t be doing this &ldquo;running competition&rdquo;&nbsp;because she wouldn&rsquo;t win. She wouldn&rsquo;t get any trophy&rsquo;s. I thought of the trophy&rsquo;s in my parents basement I&rsquo;d won from local road races and given to Millie and Tessa to play with, that was most likely what she was referring to.&nbsp;I then told her that running isn&rsquo;t always about winning, it&rsquo;s about having fun. You do it because you like it!</p> <p>I&rsquo;ve been nannying and babysitting a lot this past month. I applied to a nanny job in Rexburg today. I&rsquo;m&nbsp;surprised at how excited I got when I saw it worked with my schedule and how much I want it.&nbsp;I&rsquo;ve been thinking a lot about family&nbsp;this week for some reason, like yeah I&rsquo;m good with kids and I&rsquo;ve always wanted to have&nbsp;a family of my own someday, but I re-analyzed if I still wanted it or if I just thought I wanted it because that&rsquo;s always been my plan. This conversation with Millie confirmed it. Yeah, kids can be frustrating at times, but I love my sisters so stinking much. I&rsquo;m old enough to have watched them grow up from infants and I remember it all. And I love all the kids I watch. Jake does this cute thing where he&rsquo;ll exclaim &ldquo;HI!&rdquo; And then I&rsquo;ll say hi!&nbsp;and then he&rsquo;ll say it again and it keeps going back and forth. And he always blows kisses and this morning wanted to give me a real kiss as I left. Oh my heart. And then Tommy I nannied&nbsp;when he was 4 months old, now he&rsquo;s 2 almost 3 and has a little brother Jack who is 4 months old. Tommy&rsquo;s a ball of energy and Jack is the cutest chubster. I also nannied Sam when he was 1 and Liam when he was 4, now Sam is 4 and Liam is 7. I&rsquo;ve watched them a lot lately and they&rsquo;re just the cutest kids. Anyways, sorry rant over :) I&rsquo;m pretty far from having a family at the moment and I won&rsquo;t be getting&nbsp;married anytime soon, but I&rsquo;m getting family hungry :) psht I gotta focus on reality- school :)</p> <p>VA loop today :) didn&rsquo;t run yesterday or the day before, I wanted to but I pushed them both off until the evening and then got busy with other stuff :/ I should start waking up earlier and run in the mornings.&nbsp;</p> Fri, 06 Sep 2019 06:00:00 Tue, Sep 03, 2019 <p>Cemetery run</p> Tue, 03 Sep 2019 06:00:00 Mon, Sep 02, 2019 <p>Today I ran along Foothill all the way to the drinking fountain. I didn&rsquo;t feel great,&nbsp;I was&nbsp;really lightheaded and my vision started going black a couple times. I stopped and walked for a little&nbsp;on the way back because I was a bit worried I&rsquo;d pass out. I think it was probably the heat, I might&rsquo;ve been dehydrated.</p> <p>I had a crazy dream last night- a mix of still running with my team and needing to perform well in a race except I was pretty sick (Coach wanted me to do a stress test as a workout the night before), flying on a plane about to go through a war zone, evaluating an injury like an athletic trainer (it was a broken leg) then having my supervisor come and yank on his leg, then getting to BYUI and almost getting kicked out of a class because I got a C in Calculus at SUU-&nbsp;one point too low, but they let me in after I told them I was a transfer student (say what?) It was kinda stressful and random. I think maybe I&rsquo;m a little anxious&nbsp;about school starting again? Lol. Classes start&nbsp;in exactly 2 weeks from today</p> Mon, 02 Sep 2019 06:00:00 Sat, Aug 31, 2019 <p>VA loop</p> Sat, 31 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Fri, Aug 30, 2019 <p>Wasatch loop. Felt pretty good!</p> <p>I found out some more stuff about my biological family yesterday. I&rsquo;d asked my mom if there was a way I could look at my biological line for family history work and it turned into searching up Facebook profiles and mugshots&nbsp;:) turns out I have two half-brothers I didn&rsquo;t know about. My parents have been in jail once a year&nbsp;and both got assault charges for beating each other up.&nbsp;Also my paternal grandmother wrote letters to us and blamed&nbsp;my biological mom for everything believing my biological dad&nbsp;was innocent, she claimed that my mom&nbsp;hit my uncle joe with a car. And my other uncle did a selfie video thing on Facebook I think talking to my biological brother saying &ldquo;I miss you, wish you were here, this one&rsquo;s for you&rdquo; and poured out a bottle of beer on the ground in front of the camera.&nbsp;What is my family? I actually laughed everything was so ridiculous.</p> <p>On a more serious note, I&rsquo;m very grateful I was adopted into such an amazing family. It was really eye opening. Here I&rsquo;ve been feeling inferior and like I don&rsquo;t quite measure up, and yet&nbsp;I&rsquo;m the only one from&nbsp;my biological family to go to college, stay away from drugs and alcohol, and my twin and I are the only ones to stay out of trouble with the law.&nbsp;It&rsquo;s&nbsp;shocking to realize just how different my life could&rsquo;ve been.&nbsp;</p> Fri, 30 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Thu, Aug 29, 2019 <p>Starting from my parents&rsquo; house I did VA loop and added up Sunnyside to Foothill then back down 900 S. It felt good, running always makes me feel better. My&nbsp;legs are starting to feel a little heavy, after so much time off I think they just need to readjust to running every day.</p> <p>This week will be the first week in 14 weeks that I&rsquo;ll actually run every day (besides Sunday- I never run on Sundays). I&rsquo;m ready to start building up mileage and getting back into it.</p> Thu, 29 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Wed, Aug 28, 2019 Wed, 28 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Tue, Aug 27, 2019 <p>Cemetery run again, this time the long way around Sugarhouse. Felt great, at a good pace again. No watch though. I&nbsp;kinda like running without my watch. Then I just run off of feel. I should probably charge it so I can get exact distance, I&rsquo;m just guessing&nbsp;</p> Tue, 27 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Mon, Aug 26, 2019 <p>Cemetery run again (it&rsquo;s become my go to). I didn&rsquo;t have a watch on me, but it was a quicker pace. I felt really good, which was a shock because I have a cold and haven&rsquo;t run in a week. But it was cooler outside this evening&nbsp;so that&rsquo;s probably why it felt so nice</p> <p>Last week was a real struggle when it came&nbsp;to running-&nbsp;I just didn&rsquo;t get out because I didn&rsquo;t really wanna. This week I want to run every day. I&rsquo;ve missed it&nbsp;and I&rsquo;m ready to get in shape again.</p> <p>I&rsquo;m kinda&nbsp;looking forward to starting school again. It&rsquo;ll be fun to start somewhere new. But I&rsquo;m also pretty anxious about it because of last semester. It&rsquo;ll&nbsp;be okay.&nbsp;SUU classes started today, but lucky me! I&rsquo;ve got a couple more weeks of summer :)</p> Mon, 26 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Wed, Aug 21, 2019 <p>Cemetery run, 7:32 average. Felt really good.</p> Wed, 21 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Tue, Aug 20, 2019 <p>Didn&rsquo;t run yesterday because I was working&nbsp;all day, 8am-11pm. I was so tired when I got home. No running today either because I worked for a long time today&nbsp;as well and I don&rsquo;t really feel comfortable running in this part of Salt Lake at night. My parents neighborhood is a lot more familiar to me and more well lit. Theirs is&nbsp;also a larger neighborhood and&nbsp;not so close to Sugarhouse park or other sketchy areas&nbsp;at night.</p> <p>It&rsquo;s been 3.5 months since my last ECT treatment, 5.5 since my first hospitalization. Things still feel so much lighter and easier than they did before. I have yet to feel completely content and lose the anxiety,&nbsp;&nbsp;but I haven&#39;t had any suicidal ideation whatsoever&nbsp;in 3 months. Which I&rsquo;d say is pretty amazing considering how things used to be.</p> Tue, 20 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Sat, Aug 17, 2019 Cemetery run again but shortened it, 7:39 average. Sat, 17 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Fri, Aug 16, 2019 <p>Modified Cemetery run with a lap in the cemetery. 8:03 average. I felt pretty good, but at the end I think I had an asthma attack. It&rsquo;s been years since I&rsquo;ve had one.&nbsp;I was wheezing pretty loudly&nbsp;and&nbsp;my breathing was really shallow. I stopped and tried to take deep breaths but my chest hurt and I still wasn&rsquo;t able to get much air. I walked home. I think being slightly&nbsp;out of shape contributed, though I&rsquo;m not sure why all of a sudden it happened. My chest still feels like it has a weight on it but I&rsquo;m okay. My asthma isn&rsquo;t that severe, I&rsquo;ve mostly grown out of it. It was pretty bad when I was younger (I got it because of my biological parents smoking so much).&nbsp;I had to use a humidifier and an inhaler fairly often back then&nbsp;but like I said I haven&rsquo;t had an attack in years. I don&rsquo;t even have an inhaler anymore because I thought it was gone.&nbsp;Maybe I just have to stay in shape to keep it at bay-&nbsp;hooray for motivation!</p> Fri, 16 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Wed, Aug 14, 2019 <p>Out and back on Foothill, 8:04 average. Felt better than I thought I would. I&rsquo;m getting excited for BYUI! I have a couple friends from my home ward that are up there and I have only heard good things about it. My mom thinks it&rsquo;ll be really good for me. We always stop in Rexburg anytime we go up to my cabin so my family knows it pretty well, which is different from Cedar. I&rsquo;m only going part-time this next semester so that I can work and ease back into it. It&rsquo;ll help remind me that I can do well&nbsp;in school&nbsp;and that it was my depression that prevented me from doing as well in classes. I&rsquo;ve lost a lot of confidence in myself because of what happened, especially in grades. I got my first ever C in Calculus last fall then was failing anatomy and anatomy lab and struggling in all my other classes last semester before I withdrew.&nbsp;I&rsquo;ve always been an A/B&nbsp;student before then, so I just need to remind myself that I can still succeed in school. I think I&rsquo;m nervous to do a lot of things because of what happened, but I just need to remember that my depression doesn&rsquo;t define me and I can do more now that it&rsquo;s being treated. It definitely affected my ability to focus and stay on top of my work. I often couldn&rsquo;t even get out of bed so... yeah. That shouldn&rsquo;t happen again</p> Wed, 14 Aug 2019 06:00:00 Tue, Aug 13, 2019 <p>Yesterday I planned on running later in the evening when it was cooler out, that didn&rsquo;t happen. Today I have back to back jobs and won&rsquo;t be done&nbsp;until midnight. So, no running again. Sigh. I want to, maybe if I have a long enough break in between jobs I will.</p> <p>My team is gearing up for the progression run on Thursday. Or, I guess&nbsp;not my team anymore. It&rsquo;s strange to not be in Cedar and&nbsp;not be at all the team meetings. It&rsquo;s crazy that the season is&nbsp;already starting for them. I&rsquo;m glad that I don&rsquo;t have to stress about the progression run or the road race or meeting a certain standard, but I miss it at the same time. I especially loved the road race, part of me is sad because I know that I&rsquo;d have done a lot better this next year. The&nbsp;excitement of knowing I could possibly&nbsp;PR is something I really really miss.&nbsp;I know I&rsquo;m not even near in good enough shape&nbsp;and I&rsquo;m transferring,&nbsp;but I still feel&nbsp;like I should be there running.</p> Tue, 13 Aug 2019 06:00:00