Not gonna lie, today was one of the days where I had to shut my mind off, try my hardest to be positive and just run because I was moody, stressed out and there was a lot of negativity from my teammates. I was really frustrated because their complaints just made me envious and I don’t like that, I just want to be happy with my circumstances. I have a lot of things to be grateful for like being able to train with such a fast team and under such patient, kind and understanding coaches. And I still get opportunities not a lot of other people get, others have to pay for gym memberships and I get bribed with food to go to weights haha
Only like half of us did the workout today, I think it was all those that Coach was planning on racing this coming weekend? Not sure. Coach isn’t sure if I’m going this weekend, it just depends if there’s enough spots on the bus. This is my one chance to travel with the team during indoor, and it’s hard to stay positive and believe I’ll be able to travel much in outdoor because that’s even more difficult. There’s less spots. I understand it, I’m the slowest, we have to accommodate sprinters and throwers and jumpers, too. I understand, but that doesn’t make it any less difficult. On the bright side though, I can always drive up north when BYU or Utah State or UVU or one of those hosts a meet. So I’ll still be able to race, even if it’s not with my team.
Paul ran up to me and stopped me as I was leaving weights, he reminded me that I’m running really well right now and even if I leave SUU having only PR’d by one second, I still will have PR’d. He also reminded me that this weekend was the first meet, and that it’s ok that I died. Later on I’ll be able to hold it. I love Paul, he always seems to know exactly what to say when I need it, even though he probably has no idea that I really needed that today.
Anyways, I ate way too much for lunch today only an hour before practice so I wasn’t feeling great. But my teammates weren’t doing great for their own reasons either, except for Sam and Alison. I think they’re the only ones Coach let finish the workout. The rest of us he pulled and told us to do distance because he “didn’t like what he was seeing.” To be honest, considering how I felt, I didn’t do too terribly. It was just on the 800, I wasn’t looking at my watch and just ran with Morgan and Julieta was behind me so I thought I was fine, though it did feel surprisingly comfortable and easy. Turns out it was way slow... oh well. 2x1000s, I hit 3:37, 3:38 which is awesome. They didn’t even feel that hard. I just felt like I ate too much haha but they were really relaxed. 60-90 seconds rest between them, then the 800 was 3:03 so way slow. And that’s why coach pulled us haha. Kind of bummed, if I’d paid more attention to pace I might’ve been allowed to finish. Oh well. Then did Main and cut down 300 W for cool down, I was glad to be alone and work through the negativity that had built up over practice.
Weights later, it’s a hard week. 5 sets and up in weight. But it’ll be good for us. Also, Coach I had me roll out my quads on the PVC pipe and it hurt like heck. He says that’s what’s most likely causing my knee pain. It did feel a lot better afterwards, the hamstring curls didn’t hurt my knee anymore and I actually got a burn in my hamstrings rather than knee pain hahaha. Also because there’s an odd number of us in weights Coach I helped me with a lot of the partner stuff, it was nice to have him coach me one on one. He pointed out my feet wanting to roll to the side, in my left foot especially I don’t usually use my big toe for power. I’ve always known my foot positioning was terrible so I was just like, “yeah.” I asked him what I could do to fix it and he said to just pay attention when walking, I have to create the neuropathways so I use my big toe. One day my form will be fixed haha. Ooh I should ask him how to get my right arm to move through the same ROM as my left... haha. It’s fun because I actually understand what he (or my trainers or my coach) talks about now that I’ve taken quite a bit of Exercise Science classes. It intrigues me.
HR 55
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