Ashley texted me this morning asking if I wanted to come with her to BYU, and I was like HECK YEAH! It was so good to see my team again and talk to Ashley and Maddy, the gang was back together! Lol. We were roommates my freshman year. Talked briefly to Coach and Paul. Paul is going to help me figure out some withdrawal stuff, the committee denied my request to have my records expunged for this semester and Paul said that was bogus, that he’d talk to them on Monday. Maddy said she was mad for me because they cleared her and hers was less severe than mine. It makes me feel better to know that I’m not the only one upset haha, my dad is mad. But it’ll all get figured out.
Anyways! My team is so fast. They did really well today. It’s exciting to know that THATS MY TEAM!! Haha. Josie, Alison, Haley, Linnea, Angie, Sharlie, all of them! And it makes me excited too because it was a reminder that it doesn’t matter where I am on the team, all that matters is that I’m on the team and getting faster. Well, at least I hope I’ll get faster haha. I’m so excited to go back and run with my team, but that’s several months away. Oh well.
I ran with Ashley and both of us are out of shape hahaha. Look at us. We ran through BYU’s campus and then Ashley made the comment “don’t mind us just breaking the honor code” hahaha. Sorry BYU, deal with it! We were just in our track gear lol. We only did 2.25 because both of us were dying ha. 8:08 average
Also, so good to talk to Maddy. She withdrew from this semester due to depression too, and both of us shared how things felt while we were depressed etc. It was so good for me because it’s hard when you feel like you’re alone in this struggle but I’m not, it’s so good to be able to talk about it with someone who knows exactly what it’s like. And to remember that I’m not crazy or anything haha, that it is a medical condition.
Also, I’m going to run every day I can I’ve decided. I just have to endure through this crappy period and then I’ll be able to go wherever I want once I’m done with my treatments. But I don’t want to get super out of shape if I can help it, at least not more than I am now.